simply because

have you ever really wanted to know something, but when you think of what the answer could be, you just want to crawl in a hole and sleep for 5 years?

truth

if possible, I would classify myself as a lesbian identified transman. society of 2012, y u no let me?

likes: the best thing about being a transman is that no one can see my gigantic boner right now

dislike: my girlfriend is the biggest tease on earth. hmpf.

fact #16

within maybe the past month or so I’ve developed such strong dysphoria that i can’t change in front of my girl anymore and i can’t sleep shirtless. fuck.

I told my boss a few days ago that I would prefer to be called Arren. he has an accent and can’t pronounce it right. and he’s still calling me by my birth name. however to customers I am Arren, hopefully he will catch on soon.

YOLO

…now that i know the meaning of the term

today i had a great disagreement with my mother about the changes that i will endure as i go through my transition. what an amaaaazing start to my saturday. uuuuuuugh. come cuddle tonight? yes. i think you should. 

fact #11

I want to have top surgery earlier on in my transition.

- there’s nothing worse than getting stoked on going to Mexico and realizing you’ll have to wear a shirt the whole time.

so apparently I’m going on a vacation with my family and my grandpa in November. I wonder if they realize I might look like a hairy boy by then?

I put my binder on inside out this morning and now I have a tag scratching me for the next 7 hours, yes.

anyone else find that when they tell their not-so-acknowledging-of-gays parent that they’re trans, the parent is suddenly so supportive of their gay child?

fuck

being small

i haven’t had moodswings this flucuant in a long time

and i haven’t even started testosterone yet. what fun to come.

I don’t know what I’m doing to myself

:s